Un-foodstuffs

Foodstuffs, what does that even mean?

–noun
a substance used or capable of being used as nutriment.
Origin: 1870–75; food + stuff

Oh, that's what it means.

It's just one of those words that people throw around and no one really knows what it means.

Ok, maybe people know what it means but I don't. I don't really mind.

Speaking of not caring, lack of motivation, etc. etc. I have felt so unmotivated to cook lately. I think I just may have had the life sucked out of me. As I walked to my room past my mom with my cold cereal boxes and milk for dinner on this Thanksgiving Eve, my mom scoffed and said "ha! cold cereal!?" She expects me to never settle for cold cereal I guess. Let it be known, I'm fond of a good cold cereal with deliciously cold milk. Yes, I like to eat real handcrafted meals, but cold cereal just hits the spot sometimes.

Anyways, back to the life being sucked out of me. I feel like my brain is partitioned into three sections: 1. My gainful employment 2. My internship (I pay to be there) 3. School. My partitions are pretty much in that order too. I am having a hard time accepting feeling that I cannot put my all into any one thing. I know I'm not doing my best in anything because I have to balance everything. I'm about 35% energy at my work, 30% at my internship and (...how much is left?) 25% at school. (I just realized that would be 90% after publishing this post. Oh well.) It is not a comfortable feeling to only be able to apply minimal focus to something you want to be dedicated to. I daydream of only being a student. It would be so crazy to only be going to school. It would be so nice! My internship is actually part of school. Oh man. Can't wait for my stress-induced sore neck to go away. Should be gone in April! (After March graduation.) In the meanwhile, I am struggling to focus. Hocus pocus. See what I mean? Any one word or thought sets my mind off on random tangents that I would much rather entertain than that which I must accomplish.

The good thing about always having something you should be doing is that I find I always get other things done that I didn't want to do before when I didn't have multiple tasks clamoring for my attention. Exhibit A: A box organizing and sorting project I've had on my mind for months is mysteriously accomplished when I have many other top priorities on my list begging for my attention.

To end on a positive note; Pie. Creative pie crusts here. Thanks Martha! She's such a dear.